You're better than that, beautiful
I'm just a country girl who is obsessed with Marilyn Monroe, horses, and owls. My family and close friends are my absolute world.
On here, I express my feelings, past, present, and future. <3
If you can’t provide for a child, don’t have a fucking child.
(via typical)
I love how dogs don’t get embarrassed they just do very clumsy awkward clunky giant baby things and then continue on their day without thinking twice. I wish I was more like a dog
(via keepyourheartanchored)
this is so important stop making girls feel like they have to look like a model to work out????? that is so stupid it makes no sense but it’s so harmful u go girl no matter what u look like
Wow I needed to see this
(via look4live)
i love that stage of being tipsy where youre completely coherent and know exactly whats going on but you feel so loose and free at the same time and your typing skills blow but you can feel the blood flowing throughout your entire body and its just warm and fuzzy and nice and amazing
this feeling is the reason I drink
(via somebetterdays)
In case you were wondering…
I never want anyone to look at me and think that I’m the billboard for how to handle this. We abused each other, we tore each other down, and everything about that relationship was not what it should have been, or what it could have been. I struggle every single day. Every day, it’s still hard to get up and believe that I’m beautiful, worthy, and most of all, deserve a great love. My heart is still healing. I am busy, I am active, I am strong, and I am moving on. I don’t feel like he broke my heart or destroyed my hopes for love. I broke my own heart, I ruined my own hopes. I let myself be cheated on, lied to, and abused. He has a group of people in his life that he will never abuse. He is very in tune with his pride. His reputation is extremely important to him, and how others view him is incredibly important. Unfortunately, a couple girls and a few guys are well aware of his abusiveness. We know what he is really like. He is abusive, manipulative, heartless, and selfish. A narcissist.
The way others view me is something I have never paid much mind to. He has called me a psychotic bitch, told others I’m crazy, insane, paranoid. And I just laugh. Because all of the worries and “paranoia” I had, was all real. I was right all along, and everyone knows that. I just think it’s funny.
Regardless of how I hurt him too, I was never anything but faithful. I don’t want that detail to be overlooked. We were together off and on for a time frame of two years, and in those two years, I know for fact of at least 3 times he cheated on me, emotional cheating and physical cheating. He does not know that I know as much as I do. I do know that it is not my fault that he did what he did. There is nothing I did that caused him to cheat on me so many times. I struggled endlessly, despite my own hardships and stability, to make sure he knew I loved him. He made the conscious decision to cheat multiple times, and that is not my mistake. The only mistake I made in that situation was forcing myself to trust him, and to believe “it wouldn’t happen again.”
My message to anyone who is in a relationship and is questioning their significant other, how much they should trust them, or has an intuition that something isn’t right, YOU are right. Your feelings are right. You do not need to wait for your boyfriend/girlfriend to validate your feelings to know that they are right. You may feel like validation will give you a sense of closure, but all it will do is hurt you. You already know for yourself. Do not sit around and wait for them to tell you, admit to you, apologize, anything.
I am a firm believer in “once a cheater, always a cheater,” because it’s TRUE. in my own personal experience, he cheated on his past girlfriends, he cheated on me, and he will cheat on the next. Other people in my life, my parents, some friends, are the same way. Cheat once, it’ll always happen again. In my own experience.
Despite all of the difficulties I faced with him, how much I regret being with him, I have formed a very strong sense of self, and a support system unlike many others. If you or anyone you know is going through a situation like I did, please surround yourself with positivity. Stay busy, stay active, stay alive. You will find a new love.
Three months later, and I’m still here. I’m still breathing, pushing, and even struggling. But I am here, and I matter, and I deserve someone who lets me say no to sex, or lets me pick what movie we watch, or holds me while I cry.
I deserve the world.
(via thickmints)
